Happy Holidays

I’ll admit it.  I’ve been a terrible, awful slacker when it comes to blogging lately.  As seen by the fact that I haven’t written anything since August.  There has just been a lot of stress in my life between work, home, etc. and I’m still really really not feeling well with very little hope in the figuring-it-out department.

On top of everything else I’ve been through this year, I ended up with bronchitis last month which caused me to tear/strain a muscle between the ribs in my back (hello agony).  That put a bit of a hitch in my use of my cpap machine. I’m still struggling to get back to regular use with it.  Not sure it was helping all that much to begin with.

As far as weight loss goes, I’m holding steady at being about 20 pounds down again – give or take one or two.  Sure I’m about at the same place I was in August, but that’s better than having gained, right?  I haven’t been focusing so much lately on sticking within my Weight Watchers points as in trying to just eat less when I can get myself to.  Hasn’t been easy with all that’s been going on.  The biggest thing is that I’m trying to eat more naturally – again, as much as I can.  I’m shopping at Whole Foods for the most part and even when I’m not, I’m trying to buy things with minimal ingredients and no chemicals.  I want to see if that will help how I feel.  So far, no real change, but then I haven’t been able to cut the crap out completely yet.  I haven’t bought a frozen meal in over a month though, so that’s progress.  Okay, that’s not entirely true.  I did cave once and bought a Trader Joe’s frozen mac and cheese dinner.  But seriously, have you had it?  If so, you know why I caved.

I will be very very glad to say goodbye to 2012 as it’s been a particularly rough year for me in many ways.  I just pray that 2013 is better.  That being said, there have been some pretty great moments, too.  I’m grateful for the friends and family I have who care about me and who I love.  And I’ve had some pretty fun moments with them.  For example, getting to see my first burlesque show a few weeks ago.

On a more personal side, I’ve started dating again a bit.  In fact, have a third date with someone new this weekend.  It’s too soon to really know anything, but he seems like a good guy.

What are your holiday plans?  I still need to shop for my dad and find something for my grandma, but am otherwise done.  Found out today that my aunt and my uncles are driving in from St. Louis tomorrow just for the day.  It’ll be good to see them. I haven’t seen my aunt since September and it’s been a few years since I’ve seen my uncles.  It’s shaping up to be a fairly busy weekend, so I’m hoping I’ll have some time to relax at some point.  I’m pretty excited that I only have to work half a day tomorrow and then have Monday and Tuesday off.

Anyway, I hope you all are doing well and have a very happy holiday – regardless of which one you celebrate.  Take care.

December 20, 2012admin 3 Comments »
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3 Responses to this entry

  • Stormy Says:

    2013 will be better. we just have to move towards what we want…

    Posted on December 30th, 2012 at 11:38 am Reply | Quote
  • Rebecca Says:

    Hi Pamela! So great to see you’re blogging again! I’ve missed your funny, quirky, heart to heart sharing. And your photos too! What a ROUGH year to have under our belts, you and me both! But dang it, WE DID IT! (Or almost…just one more day then we get to put this puppy (not gonna use the B-word!) to bed, and kiss him GOOD NIGHT! 🙂

    I’m away (traveling) right now but will try to send a proper email update when I return home. Soon, I hope.

    My weight is at an all-time low, as is my clothing size, but unfortunately my cognitive skills (ADD-related deficits) and my mood (depression, anxiety, PTSD) are at an (almost) all-time HIGH. So…argh! The outside looks GREAT and the inside…BLAH. Oh well. I’ll just keep deceiving myself: it’s better to look good than to feel good. 😉

    I’ve been doing a bunch of online research at PubMed to investigate the connections between circulating Leptin levels (its availability to perform its many vital functions) and reduced cognitive function, and ALSO leptin’s role as dopamine agonist. Yep, piling through a whole shit-load (er, dump truck load) of neuro-endocrine research to help me better understand why my shrunken fat cells now result in lowered availability of circulating Leptin (a very important hormone made by adipose cells)…which in turn leads to decreased cognitive function, increased appetite, lowered mood (little motivation and reduced sense of pleasure/reward, etc), fatigue, mental depression, anxiety, and all those other *fun* outcomes from extreme weight loss—which almost NOBODY in the *real* world wants to hear about or talk about. *sigh*

    For example, here’s a tidbit: http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/23115175

    So very sorry, sweet girl, I didn’t mean to derail!!!!

    Dear friend, rest assured, if I DO discover some mind-shattering helpful ways to circumvent any of that post-weight-loss crap (mentioned above), YOU WILL BE ONE OF THE FIRST PEOPLE I’LL contact. You’ve always been so doggone sweet and lovable to me!

    So…Now…About YOU…LOL…The “dating again” part sounds potentially YUMMY! HOORAY for love, lust, and everything in between! When cupid hits the mark (or somewhere in the vicinity), there’s nothing better.

    I’ll be sending happy throbbing vibes your way! You deserve all good things and more! <3

    Big hugs!

    Posted on December 30th, 2012 at 11:02 pm Reply | Quote
  • Maxine Fowler Says:

    Can’t believe how far we are in the year, how’s your weight loss coming along anyway?

    Posted on April 26th, 2013 at 5:57 am Reply | Quote

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